Rant rant rant

So, I have some things I need to rant about. First of all, im in my schools newspaper. We are given stories that may include interviews or other forms of information gathering. We have at least a week and a half to complete these stories. I get my stories done on time, as well as I can with information missing. Then on paste up days, where we format the pages, there are other people without stories in. Why?! Granted, I get points for each hour im here, but so does everyone else. Our scores are an average. How many stories/hours we have divided by the average. A story is an hour. So if I do more stories than the average, I get more points. Thats fine by me. Whats not fine is when people come to paste up on Saturday without stories done. We print on Monday. You were told to get your stories on the page. This issue I wrote more on my stories than they can use. In addition, I get more stories when I come. I took the ACT plus writing today from 8-12:15, then went to paste up. It is 3:30, and I am still here!! The other girls have been here since 8. What is this madness? This issue, I believe the average amount of stories per person this issue is two or three, plus the opinion poll (same point amount as a story). I have three stories, plus opinion polls, the editorial story, plus ads (which also count for hours). So, assuming everybody was at paste up for the same amount of time, I can have a percentage of 166%. On the low end, that would be 125%. I will be leaving paste up earlier than others, so I will have less hours for that, but still!! Get your stories done people!!

That got a bit off topic, but thats because my brain has seemed to stop working. What I want right now is to rest, maybe sleep, in my boyfriends arms. I want to leave soon and do this, but my mother has noticed that im there a lot (because its more relaxing there than at home), and is worried. I am close to him, but thats because I believe he understands me. Now I just sound like a little teenage girl, complaining about parents and how they dont understand me. But actually, its true.

I was in a state of mania, but now I feel drugged. The ACT, then this paste up, has taken away my brain power. Im not tired, but I need to relax. Im not depressed. Its like theres a block on my mania that wont let me fly above an almost 'normal' level. It sucks.