A new year

Looking back on this past year, I see so many things that have happened that I would never change. These are relatively in order, not really. Im going to highlight a few... These are mostly shoutouts, and even if the people intended never see this, I still want to write it.

Breakup
New Pagan friends
Family camping
Summer camp (Ajawah)
Ajawah family camp stewardess
My Twin
New boyfriend
Shamans
Religious openness

To my ex,
We had years together, but those were the most critical years for finding out who we are. We drifted apart, becoming two different people than we were. You are still dear, and I keep my distance for your sake. You dont like to see me dance with other men, and im sure that me kissing my new boyfriend at midnight hurt you. This is why I keep my distance. But remember, I still care.

Oh my new friends,
You are everything that I needed. You helped me be more open about my religion, not worrying about what anyone thinks. You give me hope, courage, and bravery. I hope we are friends for a long time to come. I consider the Shamans in Owatonna as part of this group, even though you are not all considered friends.

Ajawah.
Two of the best weeks of my life every year! I love seeing all of my friends again every year. This year we had 50 Shades of Grey to read, staying up late to discuss what we all think of the lifestyle (though I mainly listened :p). We had our books wrapped in paper, because it would be a shame if our 'school books' got ruined by the sand. You are all awesome.

And on to family camp.
Fun, stress, annoyance, gross, beautiful. Hanging out with the cook (can you tell im not using names? :p) all week was fun and amazing, talking and learning as much about each other as possible. We work together well! The job was stressful and the people a bit annoying, but thats a slice of the whole. I had to wash grease from meat (was a vegetarian), gross. But the camp was a beautiful as ever ♥.

My Twin,
I am glad I found you. A grown up version of me, something to look forward to. Every time I see you, I see parallels. We have each other in every way except for a sexual sense. I can tell you anything, and you will help me through any situation. Ich liebe dich, Zwilling. If not my true twin, you are at least part of my spiritual family.

My boyfriend,
You are last on the list, but not in my heart. I want to keep you near for now and as long as possible. I dread the day that I move even a state away, just mere hours away from you. You may be thirty minutes away, but you are always here in my heart.

So this is my New Years resolution. I want to keep you around m'dear. Even while you are thirty minutes away and me moving six hours away in the fall, I want you to be mine ♥.