Sometimes I wonder...

Sometimes I wonder why good people have to suffer.
Sometimes I wonder if we could have stopped it.
Sometimes I wonder if I can help more.

Uncle Gene,
Ive always loved you and cared about you. I worry about you and what will happen. But, I believe in fate, and think that it happens for a reason. You will show us hope, show us how strong our family is. We all love you uncle Kooky Wooky, and hope you get better!!
Love you,
Koopa Kiyah

Overwhelmed

Well, those dizzy spells were from low blood pressure caused by an untreated infection. But now something else has gone wrong.

One of my closer family members has something wrong with his brain. He got lost at work, and couldnt remember a thing. He and his wife are currently heading to a neurologist while their daughter (whom i adore) is staying here. And after them taking moat my day to diagnose me... its been a long long overwhelming day.

Oh, and its Thanksgiving. What am I thankful for?? That my family member probably found a good doctor.

Well this is odd...

The past few days, ive been having a weird reaction. It will happen seemingly randomly. The top front if my brain will feel tingly and fuzzy, and all ill want to do is lay down and close my eyes. Not sleep, just relax. When I do, it feels like im flying. Also, my speech (normally complex and maturish) starts sounding like a little girl. I want to cry as well, but ive found thats my normal reaction to 'somethings wrong!'
Oh, and something else thats been happening for a while that I never gave much  thought is that I have spasms. My muscles will all contract at once, making me twitch and stuff. The definition if that is either a tic or seizures -.-

Well, im about to go to the doctor... wonder whats wrong with me this time??

Hooping

What is Hooping, or Hoop Dancing, or Hula Hoop Dancing? Its interpretive dance. Like any form of dance, it can only truely be understood by the people who participate. But I will try to enlighten you.

I cant dance in the normal sense. I dont know how to move my body, or what the purpose even is of 'normal' dance. To look like an idiot? To show you have coordination? Well, I probably look like an idiot, but my foot-eye coordination is horrible most of the time. True, I learned basic swing dance, but thats with a partner. He leads, I follow. (The foot-eye coordination issue is also why I have a hard time shuffling)

Now, the hoop is my partner. I show it where I want it to move, and most of the time it cooperates (and when it doesnt, there is a possibility of a bruise). Once you get used to the size and weight, and you work it right, it looks amazing. I have one that me and my ex made, one that I bought, and one that he bought me. The one that he bought me is probably my favorite. It is an LED hoop. So when I turn it on and start it spinning, it lights up the night.

I mostly dance to dubstep, techno, or pop, but every once in a while, a slow song makes it in. I want to learn how to dance to symphonic metal well, because my boyfriend introduced me to the music and I love it :).

When I hoop, I seem to enter my own little world. Time slows, the spin of my hoop is all that matters to me. I can start slow and work my way up, or I can start out fast and slow it when I tire. I enter a state of happiness that can hardly be described. Some people enter this state when they draw, others when they meditate. I feel whole and wonderful.

Its been a while since I have hooped for any decent period of time. Its getting cold here, so it gets hard after a while. I miss the tug on my waist, the wonder of a perfect catch, and the looks of amazement as people watch me express my love and happiness.

This is my LED hoop: http://moodhoops.com/shop/aura/

My next LED hoop will probably be the Tigerlily: http://moodhoops.com/shop/tigerlily/

I leave you with my heart soaring, remembering the hoop spinning around my body... May gravity ever be in your favor ;).

OH MY GODS!!!!

I got my ACT scores!!! I am so happy that I actually squealed when I got them!

I got a composite of 31 (28 before!)
English 28
Math 32
Reading 32
Science 30
Writing 24

I am so happy! I was aiming for a 30 and passed it!! *happy jump squeal*

Marijuana

So, I dont have much to write about, but I guess I can just start with this link.

http://news.msn.com/pop-culture/marijuana-tourism-looms-large-after-election-results

In Colorado and Washington, pot is now legal. I am in support of this. Now, I have never smoked pot, nor is it legal here in Minnesota. But I think that is an excellent way of finding more money for the country if taxed and regulated. Though one main issue is health effects. When used as an adolescent, marijuana has a serious effect. A study showed that teens who smoked pot had a decline of 8 points in IQ by the time they are fully matured. The study showed that those results did not happen if the person started smoking after reaching adulthood.

Most people against legal marijuana say that it can cause a dependence. Yes, it can. Want to know what else causes a dependence? Alcohol. Tobacco. "But its not the same!" No, they arent. Marijuana is better for you than tobacco. In fact, it is possible it helps eliminate some types of cancer. Also, nicotine is far more addictive than the chemicals in pot. Oh, and alcohol is more addictive too. Alcohol lowers a persons inhibitions so they do things that they wouldnt normally do. So if a person seems good and okay on the outside, inside he may want to hurt you. And what if those mental blocks holding him back are lowered? He starts a dunken fight. Or, what if in a normal state of mind, he knows he should not drink and drive. But when those barriers of logical thought are lowered, he gets in his car. 250,000 people have died in alcohol related accidents in the past 10 years. Thats a lot.

But what about marijuana? Overdosing on marijuana is very very hard. In fact, you should be unconscious and puking by the time you come even close to ODing. It mellows people. Instead of going out and punching someone, you mellow out and talk. You're happy. That is part of the reason it is used as medicine in California. It is simply safer for you than alcohol or tobacco.

I believe it can be beneficial to legalize and tax marijuana. I also believe regulations should be in order. My ideas are to make it so it is not to be smoked in public (unless Cannibus coffee shops spring up). This will help people that have some issue with it, and keep the smoke away from pregnant women. Also, I agree with the age 21. At that point, most peoples brains have stopped developing, and cannibus wont have the devastating effects.

So Minnesota (and other states or countries), what do you think?

Well hello again!

So I have not written anything for a few days. This is for a few reasons. First, I have started playing League of Legends. Its awesome. If you are a Warcraft 3 player, it is DotA. Other reasons include always talking to my boyfriend, or being at a wonderful place called the Shop. It is a store devoted to the more nerdy types of gaming. I roleplay with a group there, play a trading card game or two (Weiss Schwartz and Magic: the Gathering). But mainly, life has been -fantastic-.

I am suffering from mania. Im spending money, my nights end in laughs and not tears, and im just so HAPPAH. It comes with not being able to concentrate or do anything, but hey, thats part of my life! I just took two cool tests... Here are the links!

http://www.nytimes.com/interactive/2010/06/07/technology/20100607-task-switching-demo.html

Apparently im not so good at switching tasks, but im good at this other one!

http://www.nytimes.com/interactive/2010/06/07/technology/20100607-distraction-filtering-demo.html

Class is almost over, gotta go!

Just a short post for now, I may update more later. I met with my shaman friend and other energy working friend last night, and we got into some interesting conversations. You may think im crazy like, "Whats energy work? Like Jedis?" And I say yes, like Jedis and the force. Also, spirits are real. Some people can see them, and they are not crazy. Gotta go for now, but thought that was cool and fun.

Also, cuddles are awesome. I like cuddles. (AKA, yes, I agree with Caitlin wholeheartedly).